我自橫舟向寂寥

電腦裡，發現一個檔案，是一個女生的日記，應該是原主人的日記。

小時候，看過一部小說：有個人，買了一張舊書桌。

後來發現，書桌裡不同夾層，藏著信，是書桌原主人寫的信。

他瘋狂的進入寫信人的世界，甚至回起信來。

奇妙的是，他似乎能在書桌中找到回信。

我應該無法在電腦中找到那日記的續篇，但是，那短短兩個月的日記，記載著一個平凡女生的內心世界。

例如，有一天的日記裡寫著：“I discovered he has stockpiled a bunch of bloody feminine pads…I don’t know if that constitutes infidelity or not. I say it does because he certainly is not making love to me, and who know where these come from, it’s other women’s blood”。

裡面的he，是寫日記的女生的husband。

接著，是：“In fact it has been almost three years since I have had sex of any kind. He says that he won’t make love to me because he thinks that I have cheated on him ( I haven’t) and he doesn’t want to contract any disease. LOL, well he has a better chance of contracting some kind of disease through his activities with these used feminine products than from me!! ”

寫日記的人，正瀕臨破產，日記中，記了許多不如意。

看了日記，我想，正常人的內心，都是這樣，藏著許多秘密。

只是，這秘密，隨著電腦，被遺棄在一個陌生人的書桌上。